For Love

Is not a place

Where I would go….

Nor time the lonely hours,

Nor pace the room

In hopes the phone might ring….

Nor weep within my heart

And wish it were not so….

One call, and then

My heart would sing?

No, Love is not a place

Where I would go….

I said

I would not lose control;

I could not love again.

Rash words,

From inner fear

This heart grown vulnerable,

Reluctant now to trust…

And yet within the Soul

Can be no pain….

Lack of control?

Do flowers control the Sun?

Is wind at grasses’ whim?

Do seas spin tides

Upon the moon?

I do not know….

Know only this is so

Love is a place

Where wise men will not go….

But say

That this is nothing?

That I cannot do.

As I lie here

I drink the Sun

Though distant now

I share with you….

Taste of Life around me,

Sense a future bright

With promise of the New….

Take from this heart

Whatever strength you need

I ask not that you give

Or that you feel

What is not yours to own,

But simply,

Live

If Love is not a place

Where you would go….

No foolish dreams,

No bold desire,

No wish for full control.

Free of ties that bind -

Free of controlling mind -

Free now to follow this,

My heart and soul;

I say to all

Who’ve loved and lost,

Go with the flow….

As Love is slow to chide,

Swift to forgive -

A place

Where I would gladly go….

For in this place of stillness,

Calm and free,

Knowing peace and hope

That Love

Somehow

Has given me;

Here lies

The only true reality….

And in this stillness,

Conflict past,

The pain of yesterday

Grown pale

And somehow very small.

I let go fear,

And seeds of hope I sow

For good or ill,

For all that counts is now -

This present -

Bright and vast -

Love is the only place

That I would gladly go….

©Lisa Gabriel, 2^nd July 2005

How mark the Hour

When Love turns to Compassion?

Nothing lost in this,

Yet Freedom gained….

Freedom to Be -

To Live,

To Love,

To Breathe,

No backward glance

In your direction….

How mark the Hour

When Love turns to Compassion?

No words were passed

Between us then

But telling glance

Which read,

Which spoke,

Which lied….

“I love you too”

And fired Obsession….

Now, Love, I stand,

My Heart my own,

My Spirit free

To Soar,

To Dream,

To Share

If sharing be

Another’s passion ….

How Sweet the Gift,

How Bold the Step,

How Great this Truth!

I praise the Day

My Love turned to Compassion!

© Lisa Gabriel, 4^th July 2005

Life is too short for lies, my Love,

For practiced words,

For untold hopes,

For silken tongue….

Too sweet

For dark intrigues….

Too light

To lay with burdens,

Heavy with our fears

And past decay….

Life is too bold,

Too swift

To leave these words of love,

These tender thoughts

And hearts unsung….

Too bright to mask

Our fleeting joys and dreams

In shades of grey….

© Lisa Gabriel, 5^th July 2005

Sweet Rebound!

This

Turns the hour

Through sand of time

And spirals down….

June hopes,

Rebirth in May,

Soft April showers -

Down

To where I held myself

Secure,

Within that too familiar pain;

Embraced it,

Dreaming for a time,

Fondly,

Without question….

Love,

I was in denial then,

And now,

Detachment an illusion,

Each return

A shorter space,

Each space

A lighter journeying -

For this

I thank my stars

For subtle gifts

And rise the spiral

Once again

Through Hope,

In Unconditional Love,

To Consciousness….

© Lisa Gabriel, 9^th July 2005

I met my Reflection;

Perfect She seemed in every way,

Mirrored each move

And mimicked each smile.

Entranced, I fell in love -

Transfixed by beauty for a while….

My Reflection gazed back;

Amused, She cast a glance my way,

No malice in Her laughter;

Grew stronger it would seem

Took wing in a moment,

Smiling, gave me back my Dream….

I hold my Reflection

Sacred in all She has to teach….

A gift of untold Grace

The Universe has sent this Night

To guide me if I falter

And lift me, reborn, to the Light….

© Lisa Gabriel, 11^th July 2005

What Bridges did I burn, my Love,

Uncalled for, and unknown to you?

Through words unspoken,

Songs unsung,

How could you know?

Silent,

I should have been your Rock

And given you the gift of Time.

Instead, my Darkness

Drove me into Mind and Soul

To find, in Words of Love,

A Light I did not share with you….

And now,

This heart must bear the cost!

Yet still I know you drove me on

To greater Dreams -

Your Light is with me still….

The Love I feel

Can ask no fond return.

Your silence seemed unkind,

My silence, true abandonment,

Though my defence,

Was cruel….

And could I tell you

Of those Bridges,

Turn back Time,

What greater gift

Than see you smile?

Love,

I have learned so much

Of Self,

And Time,

And patient Honesty….

This song I hear,

So Unconditional in Love,

Within a wiser, fonder heart

Is testament that I am yours

Though we remain apart….

© Lisa Gabriel, 13^th July 2005

A colour missing….

Dark abyss

In these infinite shades of blue….

This note -

Centred in the keyboard -

Softest touch falling into Nothing

But longing,

Touches the void!

Can I sing that missing note?

Yes!

Hear my voice

Through shades of Being?

Touching, it stands alone,

Harmony marred only by loss…

This Voice is not mechanical -

Was never automatic in the scheme of things….

This Life,

My words;

A meditation on Love;

How this alone remains

When missing notes,

Denied,

Unheard,

Are amplified by Silence….

© Lisa Gabriel, 15^th July 2005

Waves shimmer, dancing, playful, into shore -

Toss driftwood, flotsam, on the sands;

Found objects catch my eye,

Touch Heart and Soul

With shadow promise, sweet,

Of unknown places - offer fleeting

Glimpses of a world I wish to try;

Bystander still, yet reaching out my hand

Until they leave me high and dry….

And then, a steady tide that ebbs and flows

Surrounds, predictable,

Safe harbour, calling home

To sanctuary - free from harm -

No pain - soft waters these -

Lap gentle round my bows….

Such calm before each storm and after,

When my courage fails, helps float again

All dreams of love and laughter….

Skies darken, choke back rain like tears

As I float free on fickle tide….

Waves tower as this battered hull

Is rocked in turn by hope and fear.

So, Brave Hearts hardly dare

To venture on such storm tossed seas,

To ride the mountainous swell ?

I must! Your message calls my Soul

To sail all storms in Trust….

© Lisa Gabriel, 29^th July 2005

Two words across the void;

These words so truly meant,

Spoken with depth and beauty

And such pure intent….

Souls meet across this screen;

Words fly through time and space;

Minds meet, with common purpose,

Though not face to face….

Someday, perhaps, we’ll meet

And share our Summer laughter,

Banishing pain with Joy

So only Love remains thereafter?

Know that I love you too.

I share your joy and pain.

Brave Heart, my love is with you

Both in Sun and Rain….

© Lisa Gabriel, 3^rd August 2005

Not that I love too little….

Understand, I love too much -

That hearts might break

That lives could change -

For what?

A fleeting touch?

Not that I fear to lose you,

But for all I stand to miss….

You turn from me

Forever lost -

For what?

One stolen kiss?

And if these Stars could warm your heart

The Moon could light your way,

Perhaps you’d see

Just who I am -

And Love?

Will have its day!

© Lisa Gabriel, 4^th August 2005

In Love,

I seek full trust,

Through honesty,

Acceptance of my truth

And yours….

Nothing withheld,

No secrets -

Just the words

That make us whole,

That open doors….

For then

I’d give my heart,

So freely won

So long ago by you

And gain

The joy I seek -

No sorrow -

Just the gift

That frees each soul

From grief and pain….

© Lisa Gabriel, 7^th August 2005

Meanwhile,

In the I-ness of this eternal minute,

I watch paint dry,

White on white;

Disappearing into vast one-ness

Of which I have no concept….

Was it the moment we stood;

Two souls seemed to me as one

Across a white room?

I felt the touch

Of another heart on mine,

Longed for soft warmness

On that winter night….

When did I lose the plot?

When I melted in your smile,

Or when, unbidden,

Gave too much of Love and Light?

In that brief moment,

Lost,

Should I have told you more?

Risked all I had?

So little -

Yet it seemed so much -

Gambled it all

On the sharing

Of unspoken dreams -

A nervous touch?

Meanwhile,

In the eternal I-ness of this minute

I watch the paint dry,

White on white -

Disappearing

Into the vast white One-ness

Of a dream

You could not understand….

© Lisa Gabriel, 7^th August 2005